Before the day ended 3 hours ago, I had been completely lazy. No energy. No drive. No motivation. None. This is the only thing I wanted to do today. Write. Much has changed since my last post (I keep a lot private for personal reasons). I used to keep a regular post at least once a week but I've been so busy lately that I haven't been in my normal rhythm. Hell, even my writing has taken a turn for the worse. Maybe I'm just rusty...yeah, that could be it.
Ask me who I am. Go ahead. I'll answer it! The name's Stephen. 27 year old male. Single (divorced, no kids to be technical). I work in retail sales. I have a tattoo and I drink socially. I work out like a mofo. I prefer verses and choruses to guitar solos. I play video games constantly. I love to cook. I get along with everyone and...I fell in love...got heartbroken...
...ok, what in God's name happened? I got a tattoo and I started to drink?! This is not the Stephen that I once knew and definitely not the Stephen everyone else knew. What's next? Man-whoring around with drugheads and breaking the law?
^^^Rhetorical. I'm not a moron. I've become much more open minded recently. I needed a change in perspective. I cannot keep doing the same things over and over in life expecting different results. Captain Obvious says "Well, that's insane!". He is correct. That is absolutely the definition of insanity. What he did not state though is the fact that there are different states of insanity. I don't know all of them and do not intend on knowing. What I DO know is that I had to experience life from a new point of view. I am hesitant to a lot of new ideas but I've considered all my options. Do I keep saying no to everything or do I jump?
Jumping is fun by the way.
I am still me. Nothing will change that. Just because I've added new things to my hobbies or repertoire doesn't mean I'm "going off the deep end". I haven't experienced life yet. I want to experience life. Everyone is happy around me it just seems that way. Maybe everyone is a great actor like myself. Not everything is all great and good. This is why I have to change it.
Here's a list of things that I have done in the calendar year. No particular order:
1) Tattoo! (Epic Metal Seahorse)
2) Drinking. Socially only.
3) Traveled out of state by myself for the first time. Twice.
3) Traveled out of state by myself for the first time. Twice.
4) Fell in love. Achieved heartbreak. Recovered.
5) Started following another sport (Hockey, thanks Alex!)
6) Insomnia kicked in worse, I started kicking its' ass.
7) Called into work for the first time in over a year.
8) Started crafting again. My first work isn't finished yet. Polymer clay doesn't like me.
9) Became a hero to someone.
10) I can fix some car issues. Yay manhood!
11) Went to an anime convention. Fun stuff.
This post is just to waste a little bit of time. I think it's more of a roller coaster of thoughts than anything else. Organisation will be applied to the next post.
